just between you and me

i know i usually write entries based on "the story of an aspiring artist" yada yada yada...but right now i just want to be dianne. i don't normally do this because i am a very private person and this blog is a very public one. but enough of the disclaimer. i just thought i'd share my thoughts on some things because i know a lot of people will be able to relate.

i've been listening to a lot of my friends' stories lately, or to be more specific, their misadventures in love. i see a lot of common elements in these stories, and i'm sorry to say, the woes begin when people stop using their heads. my parents always said to me, "use your head, not your heart." but ofcourse like most girls i'd always use my heart. and i got myself in a stupid mess recently because of this. but now i remember the words of an old friend:

be true to your heart, not through intelligence but through wisdom. for some people say "use your head, not your heart." i say "use your wisdom and feel your heart."

you can't be in a relationship if all you use is your heart, because based on all these stories and own experiences, you won't be able to make the right choices. you won't be able to see if he's treating you wrong. you won't be able to hear if he's lying to you. or worse, you'll convince yourself that he's right for you.

on the other hand, it would be equally lethal to be in a relationship wherein everything is calculated. to find love that is amazing and beautiful, you need to take risks. i'm not saying do it blindfolded; i'm just saying let yourself fall. but throughout that journey you should be wise enough to make the decisions to be in a healthy relationship.

it's funny how i can say all these things and give my friends the most logical advice, but when it comes to my own troubles, i'm clueless. i left prince charming because i wanted to stop being a damsel in distress. then i fell for a jack who woke up one day and realized i simply wasn't in his cards. now prince charming wants to rescue me but i just want to rescue myself. i want to be whole on my own.

so how's that for breaking out of my shell.

i'm not going to fear the future anymore. and neither should you. but we won't be able to see that future if we keep repeating the mistakes of our past. so for everyone who is stuck in a rut, it's time to find a way out of it. sunny days ahead! you won't wanna miss it.

Blurbs and Blurts (say THAT five times fast)

I've had only one meal the entire day, it's now almost 10 in the evening, and I'm not hungry. If you knew me at all you would KNOW that that's really strange. I could pass for anorexic in some countries based on appearance alone, but in reality I eat like a pig. Today maybe not so much. Blah blah blah blah blah...

Moving on to slightly more interesting things.

This Wednesday I'm going to do a live chat on MYX.TV. I was told it would be from 3 P.M. to 5 P.M. so I guess it'll be two hours long? Oh my gawd people are gonna get bored with me. I suppose if people run out of questions (or if NO people sign up), I could always just read a Twilight book out loud. Any suggestions on which one? I actually only liked the first one. After that I was all like..."Jacob Shmacob. Bella you are an idiot. " Hopefully the last installment will be a good read. I'm going to start it tomorrow. But yeah I am getting REALLY off topic. MYX.TV live chat. If this piques your curiosity at all, even if it is only to ask prank questions (--THAT would be interesting--), then please log on to the following site for more info:
http://phil.myx.tv/Default.aspx?tabid=364

Also happening this Wednesday is Vintage Soul. A lot of people have been asking when I'd return with a new episode and I'm hoping those people will read this blog. Coz I have no idea how else to tell you guys. =p Tune in to Wave 891 at 8 P.M. this Wednesday (and the Wednesdays after that) while you're stuck in traffic or doing whatever. I have a lot of nice songs lined up for this month...songs that have really touched me the past few weeks...and I'm really looking forward to sharing them with you. :) Corny moment. Sorry.

Aaaaand last but not least, if you wanna catch me live I'll be singing at a friend's bar in San Juan on Wednesday. Yes, it's all apparently happening on Wednesday. Guitar idol Gigi Arcay will be joining me so I know it'll be a fun night. Bring your friends and happy faces to BELA BAR right along P. Guevarra Street in Greenhills. If you know where North Park is, it's reeaally close to that. The show will start at 9 P.M.

Hmmm...lack of food in my system makes me crabby. Speaking of crabs I am sooo looking forward to my seafood dinner tomorrow. Thank God for my friends. I'll be back with a bubblier post next time. =D See ya!