just between you and me

i know i usually write entries based on "the story of an aspiring artist" yada yada yada...but right now i just want to be dianne. i don't normally do this because i am a very private person and this blog is a very public one. but enough of the disclaimer. i just thought i'd share my thoughts on some things because i know a lot of people will be able to relate.

i've been listening to a lot of my friends' stories lately, or to be more specific, their misadventures in love. i see a lot of common elements in these stories, and i'm sorry to say, the woes begin when people stop using their heads. my parents always said to me, "use your head, not your heart." but ofcourse like most girls i'd always use my heart. and i got myself in a stupid mess recently because of this. but now i remember the words of an old friend:

be true to your heart, not through intelligence but through wisdom. for some people say "use your head, not your heart." i say "use your wisdom and feel your heart."

you can't be in a relationship if all you use is your heart, because based on all these stories and own experiences, you won't be able to make the right choices. you won't be able to see if he's treating you wrong. you won't be able to hear if he's lying to you. or worse, you'll convince yourself that he's right for you.

on the other hand, it would be equally lethal to be in a relationship wherein everything is calculated. to find love that is amazing and beautiful, you need to take risks. i'm not saying do it blindfolded; i'm just saying let yourself fall. but throughout that journey you should be wise enough to make the decisions to be in a healthy relationship.

it's funny how i can say all these things and give my friends the most logical advice, but when it comes to my own troubles, i'm clueless. i left prince charming because i wanted to stop being a damsel in distress. then i fell for a jack who woke up one day and realized i simply wasn't in his cards. now prince charming wants to rescue me but i just want to rescue myself. i want to be whole on my own.

so how's that for breaking out of my shell.

i'm not going to fear the future anymore. and neither should you. but we won't be able to see that future if we keep repeating the mistakes of our past. so for everyone who is stuck in a rut, it's time to find a way out of it. sunny days ahead! you won't wanna miss it.