connect the dots

i know it has been forever since my last post. and because of that i'm pretty sure this entry will consist of countless random topics on which i have failed to blog in the past two months.

first off...i want to know who is in charge of selecting the playlist at mcdo. i was grabbing a quick bite at the branch in glorietta one day and the songs being played were an unusual bunch. when i got there, "brick" by ben folds five was playing, and it was just refreshing to hear it again after a very long time. then a jason mraz number came on. you know the one that makes you feel like you're at the beach? it went well with my chicken mcnuggets. (don't ask me how i relate the beach to chicken mcnuggets.) after that, i was very surprised to hear "lions, tigers & bears" from jazmine sullivan. i absolutely loved her "fearless" album, but not a lot of radio stations here really played her songs. so i have to give credit to that mcdonald's branch. i was pleasantly stupefied (i just want an excuse to say stupefied) to have that not-so-typical background music with my meal.

speaking of which, my friend michelle texted me some time ago saying my entire "commited" cd was being played at the mcdonald's where she was eating. i mean if i loved mcdonald's before, i really love it now. i never got the chance to ask which branch that was. i want to go there and buy everyone a burger.


ahhh burgers. i think it will be a while before i can enjoy a burger again. it seems like the new greeting nowadays is "tumaba ka" or simply "you gained weight." i've never had to bother with diets before and now it's going to be on my to-do list everyday. we wrapped up the mossimo bikini summit about two weeks ago and this is where i realized how much weight i had really gained. i performed for the first (and hopefully last?) time wearing just a bikini and a see-through top. and i danced. or i tried to dance haha. i have to thank m for giving me those quick lessons. but geeeez...i didn't know how hard it was to dance and sing at the same time until i was out of breath doing it. i have a newfound respect for britney.

that girl has definitely made a comeback. back in the 90s i hated her. but now i just gotta hand it to her. some of her new beats are really sick--and that is just insane coming from someone who grew up in a ghetto. (DC baybeee!) but anyway. it seems i'm not the only one welcoming britney spears back to the scene. i just hope she doesn't do another movie. her best platform is still the radio.

now let me tell you...the radio music awards is just right around the corner. it's the first one of its kind here in the philippines and i'm really excited about it. i've got a nod in the best pop female category for my rendition of "if you're not the one." i don't even want to say anything more about that. i don't want to jinx it! but you can help me win people's choice award by logging on to http://www.radiomusicawards.com.ph/vote.html. i'm apparently also going to be a presenter. i don't know yet for what award but that's going to be fun. i've never presented anything except powerpoints.

ok. i'm going to read this a couple days from now and realize how many things i forgot to mention. but it's past midnight, and along with dieting i have promised to sleep earlier. it's all about being healthy. weee! let's see how long that lasts. if you are reading this, which is pretty evident that you are, i would like to wish you a gust of happiness and an exquisite day. don't let the rain getcha feeling down!

just between you and me

i know i usually write entries based on "the story of an aspiring artist" yada yada yada...but right now i just want to be dianne. i don't normally do this because i am a very private person and this blog is a very public one. but enough of the disclaimer. i just thought i'd share my thoughts on some things because i know a lot of people will be able to relate.

i've been listening to a lot of my friends' stories lately, or to be more specific, their misadventures in love. i see a lot of common elements in these stories, and i'm sorry to say, the woes begin when people stop using their heads. my parents always said to me, "use your head, not your heart." but ofcourse like most girls i'd always use my heart. and i got myself in a stupid mess recently because of this. but now i remember the words of an old friend:

be true to your heart, not through intelligence but through wisdom. for some people say "use your head, not your heart." i say "use your wisdom and feel your heart."

you can't be in a relationship if all you use is your heart, because based on all these stories and own experiences, you won't be able to make the right choices. you won't be able to see if he's treating you wrong. you won't be able to hear if he's lying to you. or worse, you'll convince yourself that he's right for you.

on the other hand, it would be equally lethal to be in a relationship wherein everything is calculated. to find love that is amazing and beautiful, you need to take risks. i'm not saying do it blindfolded; i'm just saying let yourself fall. but throughout that journey you should be wise enough to make the decisions to be in a healthy relationship.

it's funny how i can say all these things and give my friends the most logical advice, but when it comes to my own troubles, i'm clueless. i left prince charming because i wanted to stop being a damsel in distress. then i fell for a jack who woke up one day and realized i simply wasn't in his cards. now prince charming wants to rescue me but i just want to rescue myself. i want to be whole on my own.

so how's that for breaking out of my shell.

i'm not going to fear the future anymore. and neither should you. but we won't be able to see that future if we keep repeating the mistakes of our past. so for everyone who is stuck in a rut, it's time to find a way out of it. sunny days ahead! you won't wanna miss it.